27 March 2011

hi

I'm attending group counseling sessions a few times a month. They're ok. I don't like to talk, but it seems listening to others is helping me because I've only purged twice and had a handful of binges since starting. I am up to 150, which I still feel is a terrible weight for me, but I'm trying not to obsess about it. It's impossible for me not to notice the extra fat, but I'm doing my best to keep my head reasonable about it. Teacher and I are still in love, and I won't lie, it surprises me everyday that someone loves me for exactly who I am. I can't explain how shockingly different that kind of love feels. Sorry I've been absent, I'm still trying to adjust to everything that is going on and find balance with all this change. Hope everyone is doing well, I hate that I'm missing out on your lives while trying to figure out my own, but I do hope to be back to regular blogging soon.

6 comments:

Lola said...

Yay, who doesn't love love? I love love. ED anon kept me from sliding back to bulimia last year, good luck!

Moonlight Mistress said...

I'm so proud of you.

And I'm glad you found a true love!

~MLM

tracy said...

i'm so happy you're back! And in love !

(Does Snoopy dance!).

xoxoxo,
tracy

PS i have a blog

http://maliwandersaimlessly.blogspot.com/

Jamie said...

Im glad the 150 isnt bothering u....and yes u sure do have someone that truley loves you! Im so happy for you after all that shit your soon to be ex husband did to you. Smile and feel good about it! Love u!

Mich said...

I've missed you, pretty lady!! Good for you, sticking with the counseling. And yay for being in love!! You deserve someone who loves you exactly how you are. <3

xoxo

Africana said...

I am so thrilled for you finding someone to love you like you deserve. My first husband made me feel awful but now I am married to a man that sees beyond my physical appearance. It is amazing and glorious. Usually I don't believe it but he seems to truly love me just as I am. It is humbling.

You deserve the best! You're gorgeous inside and out. :)

xox
A