11 October 2010

135

Over the past few days I have had to fight the unexpected urge to vomit - as if someone punched me in the stomach and I feel the need to collapse, holding my stomach and dry heave.

I've never actually collapsed or thrown up - I just feel a compulsion to do it, like my body is out of my control and I'm fighting an impulse as routine as sneezing. It isn't specific to any one emotion, it just randomly hits me - whether I feel happy, sad, hopeful, scared, angry, tired, doesn't matter.

I'm sure it's just because I'm overwhelmed, but I don't like the feeling.

Nope, don't like it at all.

5 comments:

v. said...

I'm sorry you've been feeling that way, I hate that feeling too.

I hope you get better soon (:

Love,
xx v

Fed Up said...

keep fighting it! You are doing so well without that.

Because I love who I can become said...

Stay strong hun. You can break through it all and I hope you feel better soon.
xx

Almost.Skinny said...

Hang in there sweety, you can do it! Hope you're feeling 110% soon! xxx

MaryJane said...

Go chug some light soymilk, woman! Do it! Whenever I start feeling shitty like that, that's what I do. It makes me feel full with minimal calories and definitely takes the edge off the feeling-like-I'm-dying-ness. I like you lots and I don't want anything bad to ever happen to you<3

I hope you feel better soon <33333