I remember how my heart ached everyday I was with E and how I thought it would hurt even more if I left - turns out I was wrong, all that heartache was just me wishing our relationship was anything other than what it was and now I feel relief - I feel free.
My friends all say they are happy to see the 'old' Kelly back again - specifically one friend said it was nice to hear a genuine laugh from me. I like my laugh, & my smile - I'm beyond happy to have myself back too.
I wanted to jot down a few highlights of my past week, to act as a reminder when maybe things aren't feeling so great...
*I'm saving money (because I'm not wasting it on junk food for a fat man)
*I'm losing weight (because I'm not eating my meals with a fat man)
*I find more time to laugh and play with my son (because I'm not wasting my energy trying to get E's attention)
*my son is saying please and thank you all the time (E didn't believe in using manners...)
*a cute boy I ran into at Starbucks asked me to meet him for coffee next week
*a hot teacher saw me with a mutual friend & he asked for my number - we're going out for drinks tomorrow
*I met an incredibly sexy 42 year old who reminded me how much fun sex is...not to mention, he seems a bit smitten with me & wants to see me again when he is back in town - I'm playing coy, but am absolutely up for the repeat
All I can figure is that some of those awesome things on my list must be true after all...