17 November 2010

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I remember how my heart ached everyday I was with E and how I thought it would hurt even more if I left - turns out I was wrong, all that heartache was just me wishing our relationship was anything other than what it was and now I feel relief - I feel free.

My friends all say they are happy to see the 'old' Kelly back again - specifically one friend said it was nice to hear a genuine laugh from me. I like my laugh, & my smile - I'm beyond happy to have myself back too.

I wanted to jot down a few highlights of my past week, to act as a reminder when maybe things aren't feeling so great...


*I'm saving money (because I'm not wasting it on junk food for a fat man)

*I'm losing weight (because I'm not eating my meals with a fat man)

*I find more time to laugh and play with my son (because I'm not wasting my energy trying to get E's attention)

*my son is saying please and thank you all the time (E didn't believe in using manners...)

*a cute boy I ran into at Starbucks asked me to meet him for coffee next week

*a hot teacher saw me with a mutual friend & he asked for my number - we're going out for drinks tomorrow

*I met an incredibly sexy 42 year old who reminded me how much fun sex is...not to mention, he seems a bit smitten with me & wants to see me again when he is back in town - I'm playing coy, but am absolutely up for the repeat

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All I can figure is that some of those awesome things on my list must be true after all...

8 comments:

Fed Up said...

Isn't it great to know you made a HUGE scary decision and that it was the right choice after all despite all of your fears? Good for you!

Piglet said...

I'm so fucking happy for you! YOU GO GIRL!!! haha.

Emry said...

So glad to read things are going so well for you! Just in reading your posts you seem much happier than you were before making this decision. I hope great things continue to come your way!

Xo-glass-slippers-oX said...

Omg you sound so much happyier and I am looking forward to hearing the new adverntures without E!
:D

MadelinaCooke said...

I'm glad that you're so happy! You deserve a lot, because you're amazing! I'm proud of you for making the decision to be a happier and better person! Congratulations love, you sexy beast :)

Lilah Lee said...

It's sooo good to hear about how happy you are!!! :)

and yes I know the door swings both ways lmao...

and I can't really answer that question lol... Like Idk I guess Im just used to guys trying to so that right away ahaha its kind of nice.....

You're going ot be losing weight like crazy now not eatng with a fat man :)

Love you!
Kels

K said...

yay i love that you are happy!!!!!

b. said...

It's so wonderful to see a happy blog post from you!! You've sounded so down and monotone for a while and this is one of the first times I can see how happy you are!

Your ex didn't believe in manners? What an ass. I'm sorry you had to put up with constant shit, but I'm so excited you're about to start a new journey in your life... and it sounds like you're do so well :-]